On the way to school, the youngest burrowed his head into my arm. “I don’t like that you’re getting older.”
“Why is that?”
“Because you’re one year closer to death.”
“There it is.” That’s my kid. Very sweet. Very sensitive. Brutally, bordering on inappropriately blunt. “Well, it’s better than the alternative.”
“Getting younger?” He thinks for a second. “Oh…dying.”
“Yeah, you can’t get younger.” I scratch him on the head. “And hopefully I have a ways to go. Ideally, I’ll still be kicking around when you turn 43.”
“You’ll be 73. So that’s reasonable”
“Yeah.”
“Granddad will be 103.”
“Less likely. But maybe. I hope he is as long as he’s happy.”
“And healthy. Happy, healthy, and alive.” Then he goes into a bit from an episode of Brooklyn Nine-Nine which makes me laugh.
Birthdays, as my oldest posited this morning, are kind of weird when you get older. Or at least they morph into something different from the second Christmas-esque excitement when you’re a kid. Because there does get to be that point where it creeps into your mind that you are a year closer to death. And that forces you take stock of your life which is a hit-or-miss affair due to being human’s volatility.